(* I am purposefully not speaking about the tragedy that took place last week. While it is absolutely heart-wrenching, and all of my thoughts and love and light are being sent east, I feel that at this point, what I need is to process privately and not in public. This is such a profound event, that nothing I post really, truly matters in comparison, so please excuse my rambling... *)
It's been a while.
It's me, not you.
Why is it always so busy!?!? (You know this is the bane of my existence right? Busy.)
Can I just tell you something? For....oh....only like 7,000 years now, I've been wanting to find enough time to regularly post. (Any free time after dark does not count. By then, I'm either exhausted, or I'm exhausted and my brain isn't working well enough to compose a posts. That or I'm sleeping.)
I knew summer was going to be busy for me. What, with the young lad being home and all. Then there was fall, which was not busy. It was cray-cray. CRAZY! I think I told you people, but did you know that 1,300 people came through our house for the fundraising house tour? 1,300! I also had some other large volunteer obligations, Halloween, a wedding that the boys were in, Jon's birthday, Noah's birthday, hosting Thanksgiving, Chanukah. (By the way, tomorrow, Friday, is the first day of winter. So, Christmas can not count as making fall busy. ) But, I did have Christmas prep! (25 people on my list, plus 8 day of Chanukah.) Which, I do have to say, since I am living off a diet of pure stress-y frazzled-ness at this time, my motor has been in 5th gear, and I had all of my holiday shopping done, and everything wrapped by the the beginning of the second week of December. I am like a MACHINE! YES!
The point is, is that there always seems to be so much to packed into each and every month. I came to the realization, that IF I want to write here regularly and to have an Internet presence, or perhaps something like that, in conjunction with creating things and selling things, or whatever it maybe become......
IF I am now ready to have something in my life beyond parenting and running a household,
I NEED TO START THE NEW YEAR WITH A SET OF BOUNDARIES AND EXPECTATIONS!!!
Like, new and radical, life-changing boundaries on my time. I need to be able to take a chunk of time during the day, and to tell the world: "Look, thank you for the invite to do X, for asking me to volunteer for Y, for your phone call/email/text message, but I am WORKING between the hours of blank and blank. THAT is essentially my problem, that I have never OWNED my time.
Also though, my household is pretty much run like a well-oiled machine. I enjoy taking care of it, but I feel like I might need to let go a bit, in order to suss out more time for additional endeavors.
At any rate, one of my top "To Do's" right now, is to make a work plan for 2013. It'll include expectations for my full-time job duties, like parenting, cooking, keeping the house stocked and clean, but will also lay out a plan for the development of my "side job".
How about YOU!? Are any of you stay-at-home mothers who are looking for a little something more? Are you interested in creative, new ways to exist is this vast place called the Internets? I'd love to hear from you!
Ok, I'm done. Here's some backlog. Which, not interestingly enough, I started this post over a week ago, and now the backlog is the back backlog. I fear that I might never catch up!
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