Wednesday, January 25, 2012

Hi Lauren. This is Lauren. Nice to Meet You!

June 2011
Here comes the gray!
January 2012
Well on my way....

I really hate having my picture taken. It always makes me feel very self-conscious and insecure. When I see my photos,99% of the time the only thing that I notice are all of my different flaws. It makes me feel sad.

Today I needed a picture or two of myself for a project, so I had to force myself to take these.

One good thing, is that I've began trying to like myself more for who I am. For the real me. It takes acceptance, and a certain willingness to drop preconcieved ideas of beauty, which doesn't come easy. I'm never going to be taller than five feet tall. My body always goes right back to the very same weight as soon as I stop obsessively counting calories. And yes, I AM a 34 year old with LOTS of gray hair. (Who also happens to be allergic to a chemical called PPD, in 98% or hair dyes, even most organic ones!)

Buuuut....... the point is this: as I've come to terms with "This is me!", I've started to slowly get more comfortable in my own purple boots. I've always looked and acted and thought a bit different from most people, a little quirky. A quirkette. I'm getting more ok with that. Women, myself included, spend so much time worrying about the how we look to the world, but what matters the most in life and how you live it with those around you. (Your insides matter too of course, but we all already know that!)

Sure I'd love to be the best me that I can be, and I'm not in any way saying I should quit trying. What I'm purposely learning though, is to be a little more kind, a little more accepting, and a little more proud of good ole' goofy me. :)


9 comments :

PlayDrMom said...

YOU ARE UNBELIEVABLY GORGEOUS ... INSIDE AND OUT! TRULY. Those photos are beautiful!

Judy said...

I love the salt and pepper! Wear it proud, sister!

I do have to say that going gray has been the best thing for my drab hair. I enjoy it!

You, my dear, are fantabulously beautiful. Don't forget that.

Twins-Plus-1 said...

I have always loved you, especially because of the quirkiness. I think this is what made we want to get to know you better all those years ago. I love you sweetie! xoxo

sharon said...

you are absolutely beautiful - inside and out. and i am totally jealous of the grey hair!

Lauren said...

<3 Oh thank you you guys. Thank you so much! <3

suziwong said...

i've just discovered your blog - you turned up in my Pinterest feed with you 'turning gray' hair. Gotta say, i love it! i've been following a gal on pinterest who's been pinning ladies with gray hair. I've decided to stop colouring my hair - I just can't be bothered and like you, I want to aspire to be the best me I can be...not the best me that society tells me I should be which includes colouring my hair. As a somewhat youthful looking 47 yr old i feel okay with my dark, long hair turning silver. It's most noticeable when i wear a pony-tail and least noticeable when i wear it down. Either way, I want healthy looking long hair no matter the colour. LOVE your blog!

Lauren said...

Hi Suzi!!!

It's so nice to meet you. Thank you for stopping to say "hello"!
It takes a lot of courage to stand up to societal norms. I applause you for doing what is right for you. I'm sure your silver stands look beautiful!
I do love that my hair is now much healthier. That is a great perk!
I hope you enjoy the new you as your gray grows out. Thank you for the nice comment!
xoxoxo,
Lauren :)

Anonymous said...

Hi Lauren,

I am 43 and about 20 percent gray and I have been feeling shy to show my gray because I am afraid that I will look old and unattractive. I feel very inspired by your blog however and I think that you look just beautiful with it. Thank you so much for your advice and your honesty!

Robyn said...

Hi Lauren,

I was just reading the blog where you were talking about your hair parting and it is normal for hair to break around the parting if you have parted it there for years... My hair dresser changed mine for this very reason. And guess what? It doesn't matter what colour the hairs are... Anyway you are an inspiration and you look beautiful. Thank you helping to give me the courage to grow out mine.